No news, just feelings (Imported from benvscancer.com 23AUG15)

23 August 2015
As the title suggests, there’s nothing new here, so if you’re looking for more news, you can go back now. Tomorrow I start the chemotherapy and radiation, and honestly, I’d rather not have to.
I’ve been reading the information provided by the doctors, clinical studies, blogs, listening to podcasts (Jesse vs Cancer – not family friendly by any means), and hanging out on some forums, but I still feel like I’m not prepared for this. Despite how many people go through cancer and cancer treatments, it’s a disease that is very isolating. I have no idea what to expect tomorrow, and that’s partly because the treatments are very personalized. Bloodwork is done, and then the drugs are prepared tailored for exactly how you are that day. You may experience neuropathy, you may not. Your hair may fall out, it may not. You may end up with a different color hair after, or curly or straight, or you may not. You could get constipation or diarrhea (but not both) or you may not.
There’s really nothing to do but wait and see what happens. I don’t enjoy that feeling, but I know I’m in good hands there. The people at the cancer center are some of the friendliest, most helpful people I’ve met, I just wish I didn’t have to meet them this way, though if I hadn’t, they’d have no reason to be nice to me.

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